De Profundis is one of the most inspiring pieces of writing I have read in a long time. Oscar Wilde describes so eloquently the workings of a soul as it struggles to come to terms with the pain of this life. I know so well the temptation to be bitter and angry when I have to face suffering and so does Oscar but as we move along the passage we see a man transcending these emotions. He acknowledges the pleasure that he was given but realises that pleasure was not his earning, nor something that he deserved, yet it was something that he had come to be dominated by. For us in the Western world with pleasure abound us I think we need to be more like Oscar and seek truth in the suffering rather than in the pleasure. This is not necessarily a comfortable place to be but it is a humbling and honest place to be. He finds meaning in his suffering, he realises that nothing, my dear, is meaningless. In all my efforts I can not describe the passage as I would like so will leave myself with Oscar’s words. They will move me always.
“The first thing that I have got to do is free myself from any bitterness of feeling against the world. I am completely penniless, and homeless. Yet there are worst things in the world than that. I am quite candid when I say that rather than go out from this prison with bitterness in my heart against the world, I would gladly and readily beg my bread from door to door.”
This place of heart is exceptionally hard to reach and that is why it is so moving and humbling.